Real quick note going to bed now. I'm really, really tired doing my taxes, my budget, planning our move. So far everything is working out. I'm not going to Hawaii on vacation guess it's for the best until all is done. I feel okay just tired and my eyes hurt, got eye drops to help but just know they get tired easier from working on a computer at my job. My hand hurts writing so I know my writing is getting sloppier guess I should type instead of writing this journal. Going to bed tired.
March 13,2010-almost time to move in a couple of weeks. Makes me a little sad yet a little excited for something new. My kids are okay with it and that makes it a whole lot easier for me. They have grown up here in this house and it's time to move on to our next journey. I'm happy we are all still together. There has been some rough times. I never understood my daughter's illness, she has juvenile Diabetes Type 1, since she was 15 years old. We now have it better under control, she only weighed 120 and went down to 90 lbs before the ER told us what she had, other docs couldn't figure it out, just didn't do that one single blood test and she would have been diagnosed before I almost lost her. My son has grown into a good kid and I seem him and my daughter going places in their lives that should be better than mine was. That was always my goals for my kids not to be without things they wanted, a roof over their heads, their friends they grew up with around them after my divorce 10 years ago. They did their part too by being good kids getting good grades, no drugs or alcohol problems, it makes me more proud to see them now.
Now I'm just getting the house ready to move out now, I have good friends helping us move. As for my Lupus, I still have my good days and bad days. More good days lately guess I am in remission. Right now no flares, I just feel the usual joint pains, headaches and my face rash comes and goes. I am starting to itch a lot more and I break out in hives and I'll take Benadryl but it will knock me out for two hours or for the rest of the night. I can't take it while I'm at work so I end up having to go home and losing pay. I go to bed now at 7:30, 8 or 9pm when I feel tired and I wake up feeling better if I rest enough. My eyes still hurt and I can't see as great as I used to but I don't think I'm going blind or see blurry just my eyes hurt and I need to close them for awhile to not strain them. I'm thinking it could be the nerves inside my eyes that hurt the most.
So far only two months taking my meds. But I do forget things, I say stupid things that come out wrong when I talk. I forget directions North/South, or names. I forget what day it is sometimes especially on weekends. I had overdosed on my pills on Sunday thinking it was Monday so I took the pills twice in one day. My daughter helped me fix this problem by searching online and found me a pill machine that is battery operated, it has am./pm. and up to 3 weeks of pills so everyday it automatically goes off with a loud buzz and ejects my pill to take.
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